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so i'm not really keen on admitting this, but whatever.

as you may know, occasionally, something profoundly obvious simply slips under my radar. here's the story of one such occurance.

(this is) the dream of evan and chan. the superb dntel track that despite what i may have said last year, is without doubt the best and most enduring song from 2001. this is a song i have listened to no less than a few hundred times, and i'm not joking.

anyway. despite "dream" being in the title. it wasn't until today that i pieced things together. we get to the end of the second set of lyrics, "your eyelashes tickled my neck / with every nervous blink" which, for my money, is one of the greatest images in song. i love it, especially with ben gibbard behind the helm singing the words. so anyway, it goes "your eyelashes tickled my neck / with every nervouse blink / and it was perfect / until the telephone started ringing." now usually, i'm so taken with the eyelashes bit that i stop processing after that. but today, walking through the south end, i processed. and i thought to myself, "until the telephon started ringing off? what? a cell phone interrupted the moment" and then it hit me "fuck," i thought, "the phone rang and interrupted the dream." and with that, my heart sank. i had to stop walking down huntington ave. and i just wanted to break down right there. it killed me. i'm ashamed that i never picked up on it till then, but hell, the song just took on so much more and it makes me profoundly sad.
then i came home and finally decided it was ok to dress like a tool and go to wonderbar for oly's birthday, and it was a good time. and we called joey fatone and dave holmes and dave holmes called me back and hey, that's cool

also this, from my 3 hour tv marathon last night. the new harry potter movie. not only does it not make me excited AT ALL, but it looks goddam retarded and i hate it. it just looks like a terrible movie, which is unfortunate. it's kind of like the sigur ros debacle only not at all but i'll talk about that now. aegetis byrjun took me by storm. i heard it and it threw me for an incredibly loop. it was amazing, and moving, and unheralded. i've held off purchasing the incredibly pretentiously titled (), becuase what can sigur ros possibly do to match the awe that accompanyed aegetis? probably nothing. i'm sure it sounds similar, but the sigur ros sound is really nothing when seperated from the magic that was hearing it for the first time. it's not "selling out" or some crap like that, but when somehting's expected, it loses the magic. and i don't know that i want to hear something similar to the last album. and they certainly can't give me anything new. i'll pick it up eventually, but i'm nto expecting something incredible. i'm expecting something that might even be tired and already done by this time. we'll see.

also, katie and i joked about it today, but i think i've got a lot of elements right now goign for me being depressed. i don't want to be flippant saying this, but i was walking around boston tonight, listening to music and shit, and i just felt awful. i want and need something that i don't have. and i don't think i'm going to get it. so instead i'm just going to be bored and sad and alone, and that's cool. but really, it's not. so for the next week or so, i think i'll be in dress in black and read camus, drink clove cigarettes and drink vermouth. in every life a little rain, etc.

also, ps. big man who wrote in the guestbook: you rule. i don't quite know what you mean with that whole bit starting with "anonymity provides truth without retribution," but i value your opinions and your courage to back it up with a name. and you are right, because i am long valley bred and truly a boring prude yuppie asshole. yep, that's me. and my music is crappy. fuck you and if i know you, e-mail me (i'll keep it private) and let me know who you are, because i'm curious who in LV is a.) reading this and b.) has such a bizarre grudge against me.

cheers.

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