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I promised you an exciting conclusion, so here it is.

I spent a lot of the day on the couch watching the Notre Dame game with the help of a few beers John had taken from a mod the night before. After the game, my roommates headed off to some apartment and I went across the hall. ordered pizza, i drank a bit, then got bored and went into my room for a decadent new-wave goth dance party to the faint. No one joined me, but i kept going strong. Then I just sat listening to in the aeroplane over the sea until kate came in and said we were leaving.

ok, i've been good about keeping this thing a little vague in the past days, but let's be honest, anything i've held back is nothing that my good friends shouldn't or don't know, and it's nothing that anyone who has been around here at all isn't aware of. things with brenda have been umm, really good. Last night she went 180 degrees. I thought that maybe i was just being hyperaware, but i wasn't. It was to the point where i couldn't even stand near her in a group of people at the party without feeling like i shouldn't be there. And the reason i have to think that i wasn't just being dumb and looking for things that weren't there is that apparently she was confronted by sean o'toole, who i hardly know, and he yelled at her or something for the way i was being treated. I wish that hadn't happened. earlier on, i called her out on the whole thing, and we had a talk outside that went around in circles and eventually ended with her proclaiming she didn't want the conversation there. the basic gist is what morrisey sums up so nicely in a song i oddly enough put on her mix "i know it's over / and it never really began." Anyway, after she went in, sean came by and tried to get me to stay, but that just wasn't going to happen. I came back home and finished our conversation in an e-mail.

Then there was a fire drill, then some peeps came back, then more and i went to sleep.

woke up today, passed on breakfast because i need to copy down the arrangement for america the beautiful. did that.

Been listening to the new TMBG disc. it's not bad. the first 2 tracks have grown on me a bit, the first is classic tmbg fractured melodies except with dumber than usual lyrics. second track is more driving geek rock. Track 3 is great. Four features guest vocalist mike doughty, so it sounds like a soul coughing song and nothing like a tmbg song. they slowed down another first kiss, which in concert was driving powerpop, now it's just a dumb love song. 6 is weird. the rest of the album has pretty strong apollo 18/john henry cuts, with a few oddities and more rock numbers thrown in. older and finished with lies and edith head all sound as they should sound. the title cut is really good as is hopeless bleak despair. anyway, this is meandering, i'm enjoying most of the disc a good deal, and a few tracks i wouldn't mind seeing disappear off the face of the earth.

don't want to conduct rehearsal tonight. blah.